Why?

I can't count the many times I have asked God, "why"? Why did that shirt I wanted so bad go off sale, why did that guy slam on his breaks, why do my children enjoy giving me grey hair, why do I always have to take a step back when I think I'm finally ahead.
Living with CRPS I have faced depression head on. My husband and I went from a two income family to a one income family.  Our debt began to empower us and soon we were robbing Peter to pay paul. The outside world was fading. I didn't know how to be a stay at home mom, and every time a bill collector called, I heard, "this is all your fault" playing over and over in my head like an annoying Justin Bieber song. I began to consider if my family would be better off with out me, and soon the why questions became a daily part of my prayers. Why me,Lord, why won't you heal me, why this and why that.
I also suffer from PTSD and anxiety,  and the more depressed I became the more anxious I became.
One day God said, "Gail why do you always ask me the wrong Why question?" Of course here I am like a lunatic talking to God wondering well which why question is the right one?  Then it hit me.
Before we can ever understand our worth we need to ask, " God, why did you send your only son to die for me?" We know God's word says so we can have everlasting life. But have you ever gone into your closet, closed out the world and asked God, why He sent His son to die for you?
You see God is our Heavenly Father and he loves us more than even the one who spent hours pushing us out.
The Bible says we are to not be anxious but come to God with everything in prayer. Do you know I spend a lot of time talking to God about silly stuff. But it helps my anxiety. My husband says I talk alot especially when I haven't had social contact with a woman in a while, can't you just imagine God on the other end? I can, He sitting there listening to every word. Cause I'm doing what He prescribed, coming to Him with all that worries me or makes me anxious.
If your anxious about anything, talk to Him. Prayer is simply a phone call, a twitter feed, an instagram update, a Facebook post. He doesn't care what you are wearing, where you are, or what you're doing, He just wants you to talk to him.
When we find ourselves talking more with God we start to focus less on what troubles our minds. Tweet him today. :)
Blessings
GAIL